maybe we should try backward for a change

Everything is supposed to make us better,
All the products we buy and products we use,
If they say it on a commercial, we are supposed to believe it,
Is your leg moving uncontrollably? Do you have a twitch?
Do your eyelashes need to be longer? How about your butt?
Does it need to be bigger or smaller?
Is your sex life ok?
How about your breasts? Do they need to be bigger, smaller, or just more perky?
Do you have arthritis? Bad gas? Back pain? Low back pain? Upper back pain?
Everything is supposed to make us better, and there is a medication, a product, or a surgery for everything mentioned above,
Do you have night sweats? Do you feel depressed?
Does your mind wander when you are at work?
Do you need help to sleep? Wake up?
Now we have all these medications, products, and surgeries for anything and everything, I could sit here all day and name the illnesses we are told we have, maybe some of us do, but not all,
I could sit here all day and name the different surgeries we are told by the media and Hollywood that we need,
But do we need any of it?
Aren't we beautiful just the way we are?
Fat skinny big small short tall buckteeth no teeth fake teeth fake hair real hair pail or dark skin,
We all are different,
And we are all important,
I think the girls we consider the ugly ones should be captain of the cheerleading squad! Could you imagine the self esteem boost that would have for other girls?
I think the boy who is scrawny and other people think is weird should be the boy who gets the girl, because he will respect and honor her, I wish that the pretty girl would care,
I think that the single mom whom is so intelligent but has always been at the bottom rungs of society should be the CEO of the largest corporation on earth,
I think that she should also run for President, because if she can mold and shape more than one human being into a positive productive member of society than she can run the country! Even the world,
I think backward should be forward,
And right should be left,
We have done it for so long as a society that supposedly does things right,
Maybe we should try backward for a change.

a silk sheet

my heart sleeps on a silk sheet,

It is adorned with hearts that beat lovingly,

My body is loved by a silk heart that glides with me,

Throughout life, day and night,

It shields me and keeps me safe from everything,

My silk sheet is a man, he is strong,

My thoughts are soft and flow and float, a silk sheet in the wind,

I am not in a fog, there is nothing fake here even though my words are so devoted,

My heart sleeps and is kept safe by another strong heart that loves with a passion and a fire,

My passion and fire meets my loves passion and fire,

And the combination is that I succumb to the intense heat,

My barriors are stripped away and my life is easy,

I have a strong shield,

My life is easy,

My heart feels light, and in love,

My love is not dainty, but does flow like a silk sheet in the wind,

I have a place in this love, yet and free to keep myself,

All I ever want is to keep myself and how I am,

All I ever want is for him to keep himself,

Our passions meet, our passion for eachother is fierce, and I love you.

I see the good

though there is bad
there is still so much good
I see it in children
my child
I see it in the young man who still helps the elderly woman cross the street
I see in the way people smile while passing each other on the street
I see it in humanitarian aid provided here and afar
I see it in the books I read about people who never give up on the human spirit
I see it in law enforcement, still working while being paid less and less
I see it in the teachers, still working even though greatly unappreciated by many
though there is bad, we always learn about the bad
But what about the good?
You can come to this country on a dollar and a dime
You can build up an empire with an empire state of mind
You can also fall short and lose your dreams in the wind
But the fact is, you can come here and have the opportunity to try
America gives hope, provides hope to those who come from places where hope is held onto like a frail string falling froma clear sky with nothing to cling to
Any race can succeed here
Any religion can succeed as well, there may be resistance, not everyone likes it but its true
Either gender, man or woman, can partake in government, social, economic affairs of society
Some say the illusion of equality exists
I say that there is proof all over that equality does exist
There are cases where people do not prosper
There are cases where race does get in the way
There are cases where gender does hold someone back
But equality does exist
I see it in the way people strive to give their kids the best, values and possessions
People say that technolgy has made kids lose touch with reality, it has made them fat and antisocial
I say that the world changes all the time, every day new things are invented to make our lives better and more efficient
Is it the consumers fault for being so gullible or is it the manufacturers fault for being greedy, is in neither one?
I say that there are always cases of people who abuse power, honestly this country has been made great by just that, abusing power,
But does everyone abuse power?
Or just a select few that ruin it for everyone?
Is every politician in it for fame and wealth, or do they get into politics to actually shape policy and work for the people?
There are always cases of people who are selfish, they do things for the wrong reasons
Does everyone make choices based on the wrong reasons?
That's what I see
There are always certain people that do not succeed and they do things for the wrong reasons,
If there is one place on the world where one can succeed or fail and it happens to depend on the individual, it is America!
I sometimes highlight the negative aspects of government, society, and education, and more but
I see now that eveything is relative
what really matters is the individual person and their choices
Nobody can control anyone else, it is about influence,
Influence can be worse than control
Because influence shapes a person from the inside out
deep down
I see that there is positive in this time of need
There is positivity in this time of the new era of "survivial of the fittest".

awesome quotes from awesome authors and poets

"Memory believes before knowing remembers. Believes longer than recollects, longer than knowing even wonders." -William Faulkner.

"Pouring out liqour is like burning books." -William Faulkner.

"Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing, I choose pain." -William faulkner.

to be continued.....

the world

The world
Is falling
Murder
Corruption
Greed
materialism has taken over the roots of our potential
Natural resources
Dwindle
As we spend and spend
The world
Keeps crying
The natural disasters are fits of rage
Fits of mother nature
And father is shaking his head
Corruption in every government of every developed nation = corruption in the governments that are controlled by modern day imperialism,
I love the USA
I would live nowhere else
(Well maybe Europe) lol!
But the USA has been losing touch for a long while
The world is telling us all something with its fits of rage
Education
Government
Society needs reshaping
Into what we all say we want it to be
But we never act
We analyze and throw the world away when our goals are reached
Partisan efforts instead of crossing lines to find solutions that plague our government
(It is getting better?)
Everything is divided
society has divided itself into the haves and the have nots
Corporations have helped but mostly
Society can change
Or stay the same
Society controls what happens (the people-but I think we forgot)
Somewhere we lost sight as human beings.

today

Today I woke up to a new day
I had dirt on my face but I still went forward
Yesterday I saw what could have been a bad life
She was all alone walking with a bunch of kids in tow
There is probably more than one father out and about in the world
Not giving a damn about the outcome of his children's lives
I see what I could have been in the young ignorant girls attracting men
for the rong reasons
Flaunting their bodies representing no respect for oneself in the truest form
Today I saw that my future is bright and my mind is brighter
The knowledge I have obtained thus far in life
Is enough to get me through until the end
Yet I cannot and will not stop obtaining knowledge good or bad
Knowledge is power my Uncle once told me
I have never forgotten those powerful yet short words
They have affected my entire life
I strayed, I made mistakes but I am here
Fulfilling a path that was laid out for me
It has wound through and around every avenue and river that life could flow through
I now know that there are consequences to choices, good or bad
There are consequences to feelings, good or bad, especially when a thought and theory often follow the feelings
Today I realized that knowledge can be a factor that determines how much success one can obtain in their lifetime.

MY BELIEFS!

sparked by Larry Neitzert's HIS421 class discussion!

I do not believe that the government has any right to spy on me, state or federal, it is a violation of my human rights. I have the right to sleep, eat, talk, make love, do whatever I want within my own walls. Republicans want small government and they want the right to spy on people? The Democrats want big government and claim to want to make the economy better but want to spend billions of dollars on a pointless war!

I am so sick of hearing the Republican and the Democrat view in this country about every issue.

Why can't it just be our government as a whole that wants to solve problems? The economy, war, housing crisis, unemployment, etc. There are too many serious issues at hand right now to be playing sides. I hope they see this?

I am not sure what a liberal is? Maybe I should ask Mr. Neitzert? I do not consider myself a Democrat anymore because Mr. Neitzert was right all that label is is to get someone elected.
I guess my beliefs are radical, I would say 90% of people do not agree with my beliefs. Is it just the area I live in or what?

Or am I crazy? If I state my opinion on education in the U.S. race relations, religion, these are all forbidden topics. Why? Can we not as Americans debate and talk about our beliefs? Human rights means not being violated by the government. It means that I am not violated or oppressed by my government which represents me as an American!

Lets explore on of my radical crazy beliefs: Then you tell me your opinion on my opinion.

Inner cities: I believe that the government in the past marginalized African American people and made it so they could not move into suburbs: There were actually rules put in place so real estate agents did not have to sell houses in predominantly white neighborhoods to black families. This problem does not go away overnight! HELLO>>>>>> Things like that last. I am not saying people do not have the ability to advance in this country because they obviously do but when an entire race is pushed out of society in every way and then they have to automatically just know how to get around the racist red tape that the government and people have created. This is reality. I know its the past but if we understand this past then understand race relations in this country a little better. If I express this particular belief when in a debate I would say that 90% of people would say I am anti American and that blacks have plenty of opportunities and I am just being racist against white people!

HOW RIDICULOUS! They are just the facts. The fact that African Americans were brutally discriminated against because of their culture and color does not go away overnight. Generations carry hate....black or white...... families carry hate......cultures, and I think it is not gone. If we understand we can try to make it better. Yes we have an African American president: But think about the little boy or girl who lives in the city of Detroit Mi or Flint Mi whom are scared because there was a drive by yesterday or their uncle got murdered and see if they think they could be president someday......We can change their perceptions on life....as a whole American society we can think differently and with less discrimination maybe people will see that we all have a common bond as Americans!!

How I went from his class to this discussion I do not know!!

Broken-Africa 9-24-10

A broken people
Destined to fulfill the destiny of the "white devil"
Emerging now as misunderstood
A broken people with a broken scattered culture
Noone can save them now
Exploitation and oppression
Take over the land and the suffering people
Exploitation even comes from within
It even seeps in via their own people.

A broken land
Used as a war ground for outside and inside forces
There is no way to successfully describe this
The land used to belong to the natives, even in the USA
and now it gets exploited
Used until it can be used no more, then cast away.
The people can no longer accept the land as their equal
Because the land is no longer theirs.

Africans have never tried to conquer other people
They have never traveled to distant seas
Or felt the use of their land as useful
The only way they are connected to the land anymore
Is to be its slave
They have never oppressed another whole culture and society
Other than the opes who have traded, enslaved, and burdened their own.

Now after colonialism, the land and people are at war
In a place where they never knew of God before
Now the people fight for those who are Christian
Or also those who are Muslim.

They have been converted to either one by a people who know nothing of Africa
They know nothing of their kind of struggle
There is post colonialism now
"Neo-colonialism"
A new term for a new era of leaders who were taught well, to well, by the white and Arab men before them.

Catch the knowledge of this ,
In your own empathetic consciousness
Praise knowledge for it is the only aspect of life that can be protected freely
People die for religion, ethnicity, and land wars,
And life goes on in Broken Africa
Missionaries doomed the broken with their good god fearing intent
How do I explain the word oppression:
I have never known the word.

Seperate the love from hate
It is all mixed up there
In the broken, currently unwavering continent
Hate drives oppression
And not knowing is fear as well
Just as Native Americans in North America were
Dutifully stripped of their heritage and culture.

Everyone knows this and yet no one understands, even I,
There is no solution to having to ring out wet sand
It is not possible
To ring out oil from water
Just as it is not possible to not see the evolution of Africa permeating into the world.

Note: This is not about every single country in Africe. Southern Sudan, Nigeria, Somalia, and many more are in wars fought everyday, over land, religion, and there are more reasons. I have become quite obsessed with the reasons for this. I want to know what the blatant deep reasons for "The white mans" supposed responsibility to assimilate the entire world to democracy and Christianity. Beyond the obvious reasons of money, power, capital, . There has to be a deeper core concept that I am not getting about how some of these countries are now in Africa. And as I sad it is not all of Africa, but I have seen too much and researched so much that the blood shed and oppression of the people of the above said countries is undeniable. And now it is not white people doing it, maybe white people are but more behind the scenes while providing aid at that, it African-Christians and African-Muslims. There are many good aspects of Africa this is just a writing, a poem I wrote while in deep thought, I have not meant to offend anyone.

untitled: 9-24-10 journey of life

Flowing waves
Green, blue, and yellow light
Slightly alters the domain of life

Oppression, fear, and the loathingness of hope
Steers society
People travel along the journey of life
And do not create based on new ideas
They create based on what the old have done.

We go and go
Yet do not adjust
We just build on the false hope of old ideas,
Giving the world new things with an old twist

Society does not fear the future
Nor believe in the hope I do
Of mankind being doomed for failure
Beyond the clouds and smoke.

Salt-Sep 23, 2010

I wait
You come
I see
You don't.

I know
You perceive
I want
You need.

Crashing thoughts
A crashing world
Is slowly
Becoming our world.

I succumb
You rot
I need
You want.

Gifted heart
A slave to art
Knows no boundaries
But his own.

The world keeps turning
Spinning
But soon

There will be no spinning
Only salt in the wound.

firstamendmentcenter.org: Speech - Overview

firstamendmentcenter.org: Speech - Overview

The laugh behind the hand.

The laugh behind the hand is the poetry behind my daughter. She explores words and expresses herself as a poet. Her laugh can be described in a word: poetic. That word embodies every emotion known to me and more.

a new day

we all must begin to rethink our places in this world

we all think the goings on of the world don't apply to us
we evolve within ourselves but not as people of the world

we must rethink

there is never enough money to go around
not enough land or natural resources

we must move forward

there is never enough power or pain
they go hand in hand

to guide ourselves through this the fundamentals have to change
the very existence of our beliefs now have to change
and we have to evolve as people and not have different beliefs but overhaul the current ones

never is there enough love, war, or genocide

there will always be more,
people are funny
some think that global warming is a myth
some think that they have no say in the way of the world
the only way to have a say is to see reality

not the sugar coated mess we have gotten ourselves into
people don't see
maybe it is choice
maybe the blindness is choice guided by doubt

or even guilt

no one sees the demise of the earth
pollution
disease
mass natural disasters
genocide and ethnic cleansing of entire cultures of people
the decay of the social norms society has created over time
we have changed so much as a people
yet have also went back wards in so many ways

backwards regarding acceptance
yes things have changed and acceptance is better than it has ever been before
yet the reverse side which is hatred, and unacceptance
those things have remained in different forms
we must evolve

we must wake up and reverse the damage we have done
there is scientific evidence of global warming
regarding if the world has already had radical climate change in the past
that means nothing
the things that are happening now are 99.99999 percent caused by human activity
human expansion
human development
human existence

we can not exist as humans without causing problems and then after it is almost too late we acknowledge the problems and then try to fix them.

I do have faith in the world but fundamental change is coming and it may come in the form of a revolution against all that we have ever been told is the NORM.

"A Credo for Support" 1995-Axis Cons. & Training Ltd.

Throughout history people with physical and mental disabilities have been abandoned at birth, banished from society, used as court jestors, drowned and burned during Nazi Germany, and still continue to be segregated, institutionalized, tortured in the name of behaviour management, abused, euthanized, and murdered. Now, for the first time, people with disabilities are taking their rightful place as fully contributing citizens, The danger is that we will respond with remediation and benevolence rather than equity and respect. And so we offer you:
A CREDO FOR SUPPORT
Do not see my disability as the problem,
Recognize that my disability is an attribute.

Do not see my disability as a deficit,
It is you who see me as deviant and helpless.

Do not try to fix me because I am not broken.
Support me. I can make my contribution to the community in my way.

Do not see me as your client. I am your fellow citizen.
See me as your neighbor. Remember, none of us can be self-sufficient.

Do not try to modify my behaviour.
Be still and listen. What you define as inappropriate may be my only attempt to communicate with you in the only way I can.

Do not try to change me, you have no right.
Help me learn, I want to know.

Do not hide your uncertainty behind professional distance.
Be a person who listens, and does not take my struggle away from me by trying.

Do not use theories and strategy on me.
Be with me. And when we struggle
with each other, let that give rise to self reflection.

Do not try to control me. I have a right to my power as a person.
What you call non-compliance or manipulation may
actually be the only way I can exert some control over my life.

Do not teach me to be obedient, submissive, and polite.
I need not feel entitled to say no if I am to protect myself.

Do not be charitable towards me.
The last thing the world needs is another Jerry Lewis,
Be my ally against those who exploit me for their own gratification.

Do not try to be my friend. I deserve more than that.
Get to know me we may become friends.

Do not help me, even if it does make you feel good.
Ask if I may need your help. let me show you how you can best assist me.

Do not admire me. A desire to live a full life does not warrant adoration.
Respect me, for respect presumes equity.

Do not tell, correct, and lead.
Listen, support, and follow.

Do not work on me.
Work with me.

(Dedicated to the memory of Tracy Latimer. 1995- WRITTEN BY: Norman Kune and Emma Van der Klift. Distributed by Axis Consultation & Training Ltd).

SOLID

I am not going to waver from my beliefs,
Even though they are different from those around me,
I see the world as a racial, frictional place and things are given and taken on terms of race,
Others would call me fanatical, out of place,
I see the world as a place that gives and takes based on your class, social status, color, religion, that's just the way it is,
Why can't I just speak the reality I see,
It's not made up it's no joke,
I have these feelings and I will be strong,
I see the USA as a declining world power, There are drastic changes being made,
But we will never be where we were,
Who is to blame?
Greed, shame, there are many reasons to move forward yet retain the past in practice,
It is man/woman kind,
We are good yet we are evil,
We see the truth,
But we shield ourselves from it by all means,
I see this country as a country that needs its people to step it up and care a little more,
About the world,
There are drastic changes being made, everyday
The new administration is under scrutiny and pressure,
If you think it has nothing to do with race, then the reality has not set in that we need a change,
Racism has taken a new face,
I took care of an old woman,
She astounded me with her words,
She stated that "n******" were the downfall of Owosso MI: where I live,
I see racism everyday,
We are better, as a nation, but racism has just taken a new face,
President Obama will face opposition for many reasons,
You can bet one of those reasons is the deep down subconscious embedded feeling called racism that exists today.


I am not trying to be negative or be down and out about things I just feel its OK to reach in and take out the bad and examine it to the fullest potential. For those of you who do not agree with me or feel I am just a fanatical Liberal....leave your comments they would be greatly appreciated.

Allyvia Rose

I love teaching her and watching her and being near her everyday,

I love seeing her eyes smile when she likes what I say,

I love how she walks around with not a worry in the world,

I love the stream of happiness she leaves wherever she walks,

My dear sweet Allyvia Rose,

You wake up my world everyday,

You know my sadness and happiness too,

You feel with me,

Hear with me and experience my world,

I love watching you walk into school,

Or perhaps should I say run,

You run to learn, You love to learn,

You get that from me....

I love to see how you react to bad things in the world and especially the good things,

I love to see your face when you know what I will say,

I remember my childhood,

I remember everything you do is what I used to do,

I ran to school, I was eager to learn,

I never faltered from what I was, I was just me,

I love how you are just you,

No excuses, there could never be an excuse,

I love you so much,

Cliche, but I do,

I love you all the way to the farthest away paradise in the farthest extensions of the outer universe.....more than that.....more than I could ever try to put into poetic words.

Go go go thats all we do, we want more and more and more
without giving ourselves the truth
We do not need more and more and more
We need less....we are spoiled little kids who when we don't get our way, we are mad at the world
The world that already thinks poorly of us anyways,
go go go and more more more
what happens when there is no more, what happens when those who have never wanted or needed for anything suddeny; have to ask for help or even beg
That day may come
That day may be the day that we finally change things around.

beautiful lady

I have known you since childhood,
Always respected you and loved you so,
But as I grew older I saw the side of you that showed me who you really are,
A wonderful woman inside and out,
You preserve your youth and never make a big deal about getting older,
My daughter's first experience with chocolate was with you!
She loved it and that day you grew close and stayed so.....
You have so many little ones around you but you still manage to remember all the names and all the birthdates of every one, I can't even remember my own sometimes....haha
Your faith is strong but you never pushed it on anyone else you just knew your beliefs and that was good enough,
No matter what people thought or said or did you always stayed Aunt Viv,
No matter the hardship,
You stayed as we all will remember you, honest and good........
I look up now even though my beliefs are different than yours,
I know you are surrounding those you love and giving them strength through your memories...I love you rest in peace,
we all know someday that in death we will be with you again, we are with you in spirit now in soul and when we die, which is inevitable,
I will hug you again and tell I love you.

Through everything I have remained calm

I have remained calm through most occasions in my life. There have never been any flip outs or outrages, atleast major ones, that I can think of. Ofcourse I have been in arguments but I am referring to the moment after a trauma or crisis when most people have the sudden breakdown that is necessary at that moment. I have never expressed pain, fear, depression, or any horrible emotion I have been feeling for the last 11 years. I can not explain the pain, fear, or depression to anyone except that it is deep inside. I am happy yet depressed. I have finally accepted the fact that I am not going to just let go of old feelings with a shrug of the shoulders because I can't. There is no way. I tell myself things that people probably should not tell themselves. Considering that negative self talk is the worst thing one can do to themselves. It can take years to reverse the negative things that we tell ourselves. For instance, when I feel fat or whatever, I tell myself, you are so fat.....When something happens where I make a mistake or don't do something I am supposed to do, then I tell myself I am stupid. It's not right. and It's not something I am particularly proud of. Ignorance is bliss and isn't it more easy in life to deny issues. Posty Traumatic Stress Disorder is pretty serious and it affects millions of people everyday. It affects our soldiers coming home from war in Iraq, or that have come home from WWI, WWII, Vietnam, Desert Storm. It affects rape victims, assault victims, people that have suffered a loss in their lives due to murder or drug overdoses or whatever else you can think of. It is serious. There are so many ways that a person can close themselves off to the world and make it look like their ok while they keep closing and closing and closing themselves off. You know how they say when a person is a functional alcoholic, their family and friends will view him/her as not being that bad because they work, go to school, have families and take care of them. Somebody who functions with a mental illness is exactly like someone who functions with long term alcoholism. Actions become addicting instead of the alcohol though. The agony of knowing that there is a problem but are helpless to fix it. A person can be addicted to their own disorders, whether mental or physical. Actually I mentioned a second ago about letting go of old feelings, most of them are not old they are new stemming from old and back again like a regret that just keeps thowing itself in your face day after day. Most disorderly feelings come just out of nowhere. People say oh its normal, I know how you feel, or whatever, but everyone knows or atleast should know that no two people are exactly alike. My mental disorder could be your everyday life. Well I do not want it to be my everyday life. I am up and down, outside myself and in, on this side and that, and the most frustrating thing is that I thought when my life was like it is now I thought that was going to erase whatever used to be there but still remains. I thought finding a man and I love and want to be faithful to was going to make me all better. I thought reaching my goals, HAVING SET GOALS, was going solve it. I thought knowing my morals, values, and where I want to be with my education was going to just magically make my thoughts, regrets, and feelings change so I can think differently. you may be saying well give me an example, ok i'll come back and write more because I can't think of any while I am trying to. lol/././.

let it be

catching the rays of love sunk down upon the ground
every catch is apparent to be woozy
falling into the sunken love on the ground
the quick sand of it is enormous
can love sink but still be there sunken in the ground?
cast away the deep and let it be
deep thoughts keep the mind going, going too much, too fast, too long, too much
know this::::::::::: it is not a joke
don't give away that which you love
don't be scared of it either
let love be
let it go if need be
but while it is alive or sometimes dead
let it be..............